I have this secret.... Well, perhaps not a true secret, but a tid-bit of information I've been holding onto for some years. I think I've been astral projecting since childhood. It's not that I haven't wanted to say these thing aloud, I am more or less afraid of what it means for me. Astral projection has always been one of those things that  make you sound crazy, or maybe a little less crazy! LOL But to be serious astral projection for me fundamentally means everything I know now, the reality I live is a very beautiful lie.

I want to share pieces from my experiences for really two reasons, to lessen the weight of my heart, and to also see if anyone has had any relative experience. So let's begin...

My first experience was when I was 10 or 11. Initially it started with what I thought was a dream of me feeling the sensation of levitating then suddenly falling in darkness. Night after night I would wake in a near heart attack just moments before I hit the bottom - and then, it stopped. As I  grew older I never really had dreams unless they were these very strange ones or just flat out nightmares, but still dreams were a rarity if they ever happened at all.

Close to two years ago, again I was falling in darkness - in that moment I had instantly realized I was having the same exact experience from before. This time I was finally aware of something different - although I cannot tell you what that difference is. Suddenly I had stopped falling then a flash of pain then numbness can over me. My arms and legs lay swaying below me as my vision clears and I see a cone glistening with my insides flayed around it as if decoration. I come to the understanding that I've fallen onto a sharp cone stone, my body unable to move I stay there as a sense on calmness and coldness takes over as I close my eyes and submit to what I understand as death.

Photo sourced from Vincent LaMotte

I've been writing about the "Black Conscious Community" recently not for viewership, but simply because I believe in truth. I believe that moral fiber - the thing that drive us all to be one way opposed to another is important not only for myself, but for everyone who ever endeavors to be the best version of themselves. Truth is a very singular thing if I can steal a quote from my favorite movie "Cloud Atlas".

"Truth is singular, its versions are mistruths."  

Over the years since my initial entry into the conscious community, I've had challenges  with the way that we have treated each other. The viciousness in which we try to destroy one another for mere slights and petty attacks at ones character. This observation was made valid as I watched the trauma unfold in regards to our brother Young Pharaoh and his experiences with the affiliates of HOK (House of Konsciousness). As I watched the events what I saw a sick and demented people attempt to destroy a young man's character and nearly take his freedom for nothing more than a petty rivalry between two different trains of thought.

Last night I viewed a livestream hosted by brother Kev Gillz in which Young Pharaoh shared his story about how he first was exposed to Consciously Black YouTube and how those experiences lead to court appearances and de-facto gag-orders which prevented him from speaking his truth about what happened and why he was/is so persistent to make his followers aware of the treachery behind HOK and the people that associate themselves with the platform.

I'd first like to start with the working definition of Treachery: (from Dictionary.com)

Noun,

1. violation of faith; betrayal of trust; treason.

2.act of perfidy, faithlessness, or treason.

I don't know Young Pharaoh personally however, I'd like to speculate that in the beginning he revered the people of HOK. That deep respect and admiration of people who saw life similar to how he did. Who wanted many of same things for that black community and aspired to assist the community in bettering itself from the inside. Time would show our brother that all skin folk ain't kin folk.

The unfortunate series of events that followed Pharaoh's interaction which Black Conscious YouTube paints a broader picture of how severely sick a depraved we still are as a people. Our inability to value each others lives as sacred and important aspects collectively and individual only show the work that we still have to do. To benefit the whole, we must first start with self.

So I know you came here to read about the treachery so let's talk about it. According to Pharaoh,  his revelations came when he realized his interactions on the platform were set up as impromptu debates with other members to bash and demoralized the thoughts he presented. A rivalry quickly began as the group "Amun Ra" as a whole or in part began to criticize Pharaoh as begin a "idiot, immature and pseudo". Amun Ra had no respect for Pharaoh, even when time and time again he attempt to hash out the issue with them. Pharaoh left the squabble alone and continued to speak with his already surmounting audience.

Meanwhile, a member of Amun Ra, Dr. Maat (Deanna Bailey) pressed criminal charges and filed a restraining order against Pharaoh - a man she had never met in person. According to Pharaoh not only was this a defamation against him but it could have potentially cause Pharaoh to violate his parole and have committed to jail time as a result.  He also acknowledge that unknown persons called the court with claims that Pharaoh would "shoot up the courtroom" causing more of a aggressive presence at his arrival.

These incidents occurred after a already failing  experience with brother polight never sending goods worth several hundred dollars to Pharaoh which led to sa neter (founder of HOK) having to intervene to return payment for said goods.  Pharaoh also had his GoFundMe reported with false claims of never utilizing the money for it's listed purpose which resulted in the campaign to be terminated. Pharaoh also claims to hold the transcripts in which Bailey perjured herself under oath during the trail of how she met Pharaoh, threats against her and her son's life, harassment, claims to bring a fire arms onto public property for malicious intent.

All these incidents led to Pharaoh's YouTube channel being placed under investigation by his parole.


My final thoughts are, the truth will ALWAYS come to the light. In this case of Young Pharaoh, the treacheries that were committed against him would lead us to believe that these people are no different that the "devils" they claim are our mortal enemies. They behave and move in symmetry with them. These people have stood passively by while claims of money fraud, verbal assault, potential incarceration go unchecked and foster the breeding ground for more of the same.

What I think on the matter is that it's high time that we as a collective start to draw lines in the sand against these supposed leaders of consciousness who will go to such lengths to destroy other in community they see as a nominal threat to their conglomerate. To sabotage and defame their own family for petty grievances. At what cost will we stand up and strengthen our spines with a moral fiber that doesn't collapse for social media fame and celebrity. What are will willing to stand for if even social media citizenship supersedes the threshold of our better natures.

For me...... I draw the line here and the buck stops now! #HeKnew #TeamTruth

Months have gone by since we first heard about the 50K victim of Brother Polight. After several conversations the 50k victim was chosen to speak ups about his relationship with Polight and how exactly it came to be that he invested money with Polight.

As we understand from the victim, "Brother Willie" he first encountered Polight online via YouTube and some time after joined the Nu Convenant group. Brother Willie immersed himself in the group and began to participate in making Polight's head dresses and doing security for Polight's events. Time went past and Polight began to initiate conversations about investing money to get a return on investment (ROI) and then help further the black community.  Brother Willie agreed and first invested ten thousand to start a "credit card processing" company in which Polight along with his friend Brother Reggie, popular from Black News 102 personally picked from his store in York PA.

Brother Willie stated that Polight and his family came to visit him on more than one occasion. Here are some Pictures below:

Brother Willie showing his head dress work for Polight

Brother Willie stated that he thought he and Polight were very close and that he thought of Polight as more of family than anything else. He believed in Polight and his vision to create a community of businesses and services for Black people across American.

View Willie's 45k wire transfer to Amunet (Polight's Wife) here

In the United States, mail and wire fraud is any fraudulent scheme to intentionally deprive another of property or honest services via mail or wire communication. It has been a federal crime in the United States since 1872.[1]  Whoever, having devised or intending to devise any scheme or artifice to defraud, or for obtaining money or property by means of false or fraudulent pretenses, representations, or promises, or to sell, dispose of, loan, exchange, alter, give away, distribute, supply, or furnish or procure for unlawful use any counterfeit or spurious coin, obligation, security, or other article, or anything represented to be or intimated or held out to be such counterfeit or spurious article, for the purpose of executing such scheme or artifice or attempting so to do, places in any post office or authorized depository for mail matter, any matter or thing whatever to be sent or delivered by the Postal Service, or deposits or causes to be deposited any matter or thing whatever to be sent or delivered by any private or commercial interstate carrier, or takes or receives therefrom, any such matter or thing, or knowingly causes to be delivered by mail or such carrier according to the direction thereon, or at the place at which it is directed to be delivered by the person to whom it is addressed, any such matter or thing, shall be fined under this title or imprisoned not more than 20 years, or both. If the violation occurs in relation to, or involving any benefit authorized, transported, transmitted, transferred, disbursed, or paid in connection with, a Presidential declared major disaster or emergency (as those terms are defined in section 102 of the Robert T. Stafford Disaster Relief and Emergency Assistance Act (42 U.S.C. 5122)), or affects a financial institution, such person shall be fined not more than $1,000,000 or imprisoned not more than 30 years, or both.[2]  

18 U.S.C. § 1343 provides: Whoever, having devised or intending to devise any scheme or artifice to defraud, or for obtaining money or property by means of false or fraudulent pretenses, representations, or promises, transmits or causes to be transmitted by means of wire, radio, or television communication in interstate or foreign commerce, any writings, signs, signals, pictures, or sounds for the purpose of executing such scheme or artifice, shall be fined under this title or imprisoned not more than 20 years, or both. If the violation affects a financial institution, such person shall be fined not more than $1,000,000 or imprisoned not more than 30 years, or both.[3]

We are continuing to access and verify any and all of Polight's claims to have, was, or is in business to broker deals on the level that he has spoken of in the past. that information will be given to any and all victims of Polight needed for their individual or collective cases.

  

It's Monday and I have finally gotten a chance to rest. There's been so much going on and I'm sure you know exactly what I'm talking about. Work, children, family, duties outside of the home. So many outbound requirements that make us forget about us. I think as women especially, we have this crazy tendency to use others - and our love we give to establish some sort value to our own lives.

Essentially we equate to happiness we can encourage in others, as a sort of passive happiness for ourselves.

The last few years I've gotten reacquainted with a part of me I have forgotten since childhood. How good it feels to just do little things for my own personal benefit. Bubble baths are great, a new purse is awesome - but these things fade. Their value and how we feel about them fades as quickly as we get them. For me, I remembered how it felt to do something repeatedly. Sometimes watching the same bird outside my window, more recently now - getting up a 5-6 to scavenge my garden for slugs and caterpillars. Even when I had a corporate life, I would wear lingerie under my clothes.

Now, a bit wiser, a bit more secure in my future and end destination. Happiness comes in the form of ritualizing certain habits that promote positive feelings about myself. Not just mantras or special little notes we leave and never see again. I mean a more tangible and more visceral set of habits and adornments that have significance.

As a mother, the first tackle for me was being resistant to adopting habits that only had a benefit for me and no one else. My garden was the place that taught me this lesson. As a gardener, the importance of feeding and nurturing your plants is important not only for the production of blooms and food but also for the vitality of further seedlings and off-shoots from the mother plant. In my garden, I see what happens when some plants take priority over others. Some plants thrive and grow big and green. The ones unattended left to suffer from being overshadowed, and lack the nutrients they need. Eventually, these plants produce little to no fruit and harvesting seeds is never an option from these plants.

I applied that same thinking to myself, visualizing me as a plant in a much larger garden - needing sun, water, and nutrients. How I feel about myself and what I do to maintain positive feelings is just the same as tending to the garden.

The next thing I had to do was to forgive myself. As a true earth sign - I most often suffer in silence. The guilt from things that happened years ago weighed heavily on me. I never spoke about it because I just assumed people really don't want to know about the wars I've battled in my life. Also, I was conditioned to believe that real women must struggle some sort of way to validate our womanship. I had a conflict in narrative, as I presented myself one way to the world - strong and unmoving, and the narrative of my heart that wanted to be weak and cry, to tell others who I really was and the things that hurt me.

I became aware of what I was doing to me and decided that the only way to heal was to purposely and repeatedly do things that make me feel good about who I was/am.

I ritualized things that make me joyful and help me find happiness.

Hours have gone by as there has been no retraction video from Polight. The video where Polight claims sole responsibility for the NISRE, Inc. Cargominiums project. Since the request for Polight to do a retraction video, he's recorded himself seemingly at the Grammys' and later featured on Black News 102.

Is Polight's refusal speaking to something larger, or is he in a blind denial to admit the truth to himself and his audience? Black Youtube has been speculating as to what exactly Polight thought posting the 'cargo bin' live stream from his facebook.

Quick assessment from YouTubers and others have mostly decided Polight's claims are false and lack important details that one who truly cultivated, executed and now midway through would know. Many have suggested Polight's telling of the "his project" is nothing more than a regurgitation of news clips that can be found all over the internet. Doubling down on the fact that in none of the clips does anyone ever mention Polight as being a "major investor" as he implied in his video. We would like to think that being as big of an investor as he has claimed he would be on the sponsors' board?

We don't see anything here?

We even dug as far as to look up if Polight has any active business's registered with the state of Ohio. There are no registered sole proprietorships, llc's, corporations, nonprofits, ngo's or the like that would even suggest that Polight can and could legally do business within state lines. This is not to say that one has to be a business owner to be an investor, however, a project as large as this one - we would only be inclined to believe that whatever monetary investment Polight did make would be on some documentation, somewhere? We also looked at the bids for the Cargominiums project and again didn't see anything that seemed like an association to Polight or his brand.

With the overwhelming amount of evidence that says Polight has made some serious false accusations, when will we see a retraction video? It is the very least, in my opinion, one thing he could do.

Cargominiums itself is a for-profit, trademarked, business. So again the question is how is a fully functional business needing the help of Polight, and how is he affiliated with them? The answer is, he is not. The lunacy or perhaps the unbelievable amount of gull that Polight has (and ignorance to think that at this point everything he says will not be fact-checked) to think that people will continue to sit and allow the narcissistic alternative facts spew from his face, I think is a glaring indication of his sheltered life in CA.

This is not to mention the disrespect of a black woman who has worked for over a decade to serve the same people Polight gives advice to. Ms. Reynolds has made it her life's work to help those who need second chances. Ex-felon to the homeless has been her moral and professional mission since the early 2000's.

As a added effort, we will continue to check the registered business in every state that Polight has claimed to do business in and post them in following blogs. We will check to see if he has ever had any financial institutions, real estate, and even if he has ever been licensed to practice any of claims he's made over the years. This is a fine time to put Polight's mouth where all this missing money is, cloned sites or not. To find out if any of these alternative facts he lays so graciously out to the public have any merit beyond his own self-estimated value.

Over the last few days, a video surfaced of Brother Polight at a development site claiming he himself was brains behind this latest idea of building affordable housing. In the video, Polight states the 'cargo bin apartments' is the greatest real estate venture he has taken on to date. Surrounded by people which one he claims to be the project engineer, he also claims that this project will not only house families (another idea he has thought up on his own) but also will employ people on site if they are able and willing to relocate to the area.

The video shows Brother Polight entering and then maneuvering a crane inside the construction site. He and his group dressed in seemingly construction attire, Polight also claimed that repurposing shipping containers has never been done anywhere in the nation and that more funders would be needed in order reach and help countries that have suffered from natural disasters like Haiti and Puerto Rico.

However, shortly after the live stream aired on Facebook, the real developers of the Cargominiums project responded with a warning to his followers...

NISRE, Inc. is a faith based non profit housing organization.  Our mission is to provide housing solutions and supportive services for the homeless and at-risk.  We specialize in working with men, women and children who have been in bonds physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.  With programs centered on housing, helping and healing, NISRE, Inc. purposes to restore lives...liberating one individual at a time. 

The primary people NISRE aims to serve are ex-offenders, the homeless, transition-aged youth, children of incarcerated parents, the developmentally challenged, those in recovery, those with mental illness, and seniors. Read the full web briefing here. Reynolds and NISRE have been committed to serving the same people which Polight braisingly gained entry and then possed on his facebook live stream.

Checking whether or not Polight has any ties to the Cargominium project has shown no results for him or his associated brands having any affiliation with NISRE, Reynolds, or AES.

NISRE was contacted about their awareness of Polight and his claims and this response was made.

"I recently became aware of it and am taking swift action to bring this to an end. A retraction video by Brother Polight is expected soon.  ABC6 on your side has also been contacted and may pick up the story." 

All this coming on the eve of a mysterious alleged victim of Polight. The victim was reportedly going to be interviewed via Youtube to tell their tale of a sum of 50k having been invested with no return payment ever being made by Polight. Minutes prior to the video airing on youtube it was deleted by channel owner Lex Vortex.

No official comment has been made by Lex, however, he did say that the person he planned to interview suddenly made contact with Polight and they are both currently working out their situation. Not many details are available about the latest alleged victim of Polight other than a business owner from Pennsylvania.

This news seems highly suspicious as followers of Polight and others challenge his claims to ownership of Cargominiums and that he invented the concept of using 'cargo bins' as an alternative housing material. Did Polight silence this latest alleged victim to save his reputation from more harm?

Only time will tell how things play out. Will we ever see a retraction video from Polight, and will this 50k victim resurface to share their story?

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